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Learning the Hard Way: Who vs How

I was brought up in a family that espoused independence and valued self-reliance.

From a young age, I heard things like,

“Don’t rely on others,”

“The world doesn’t owe you a living”,

“God helps those who help themselves” (Slightly odd, because we were not a spiritual / religious family).

I rarely accepted help and even more rarely asked for it.

My worldview was that nobody was going to “save” me. I had to figure out where to go and beat my own path.

It certainly didn’t help that social skills weren’t my strong suit. Yet, I didn’t feel that much of a loss because I thought that I didn’t need help anyway.

I never thought that this was out of the ordinary.

The trouble with having such a mindset is that you start to question the motives of people who may genuinely want to help - not out of selfish desire or personal gain, but just to be helpful.

I certainly had these thoughts. If I didn’t want to help others, why would someone else want to help me?

Even today, this question enters my mind.

Thoughts

I am skeptical of others and their intentions, and I see extending a helping hand as having the effect of disabling the other person’s resilience, i.e. helping others makes them / keeps them weak.

Troublingly, this fed a fear of weakness. I feared that accepting help would make me weaker or cause others to think that I am weak.

Through reading a number of books and my involvement and participation in a Men’s Group (which I talked about in an earlier post), I started working through the latter issue.

The former issue - that of my fear that accepting help would make me weaker - is still an issue. As I think on it, I find that I don’t apply this as much to other people now, but I still apply it to myself.

It’s something I definitely have to work through because it’s starting to become problematic, especially in my current journey to validating and launching an online workshop - currently aimed at fellow introvert teachers / trainers who are new to the craft.

I will talk to someone who already has a sizeable online community, who is also an introvert, and who has previously offered to help promote useful content to his community.

I don’t know how it will go, but let’s try. One step at a time.

Walking in Step